Inspirations and images of not knowing have been flooding my brain………..it is so refreshing and yet so exasperating at the same time….
Maybe it is partly the nurse thing………maybe it is mostly a Bradford thing……….but whatever the source, being comfortable with not knowing the answer to a burning question in my mind, heart or soul has been a lifelong challenge!
Why am I writing this now, and not a year ago or a year from now? We have stuff going on that we cannot get an answer to – or control over…….no matter how hard we try. Everyone has stuff……….I know…………and our stuff is basically all good. Here’s the bullet list:
- Awaiting a kidney donor/recipient decision on two of our kids – we are at the mercy of a stupendous, amazing, talented, caring, overwhelming medical system that will hopefully be soon performing a miracle in our family! We are told that OSU Medical Center practically throws a party for a Living Donor experience. Thank God for all the people who say “YES”. One incredibly devastated family said yes in the middle of the night 17 years ago – one beautiful adult daughter is a match, and old enough to say yes this time around.
- Moved to a new home with a beautiful feel, a lovely flow of energy and love of family and friends already in place – and a leaky roof that it turns out no roofer wants to fix!!!
- Excitedly looking forward to an epic visit from our Coloradans – and a big contingent of local family to welcome them back – with no idea how we will coincide with the transplant issue noted in #1 above.
- Summer vacay almost over for Ohio Grandkids – how did that happen without all the summer dream ideas, games and trips that we planned and dreamed about last May coming to fruition? I am starting to think that is why they have all the pumpkin farms and corn maizes in the fall……..
- Growing a spectacular crop of crab grass in my new vegetable garden…….that takes some talented neglect to accomplish……..let go……….let go………….let go………… 🙂
Enter Carrie Newcomer……………..thank you, thank you, thank you Carrie………over and over daily I thank you for your company as you sing me through my day!!
I am really learning at lightning speed to Sit Without Knowing……..it seems to be working beautifully in my incredibly blessed, yet overwhelming life!! Perhaps it seems outwardly like a paradox, but it truly is right where I need to be. See what I did there?
Good Morning Mum 